Today as I get ready to take off for a week to learn more about my heart and about developing a discerning one in a class, I am reading blogs instead of getting my ducks in a row. Most are but those few pesky active ones are hard to rope in. But still like, t least headed in the right direction which at your prompting to look at differently is actually encouraging. Attitude shifts can do that.
I am leaving without my computer; the love gals need it for school work. It won’t be long before we will have to buy another one. But with my phone and the family iPad. I am looking forward to not carrying the thing through the airport!
I will have some books, Bible, and my Kindle. And lots of time for reflection and interaction! After all it is for a small class of deep interaction. Our purpose is to learn more about us in Him and to prepare to be a more effective minister to women we teach and mentor. Frankly, I am not looking forward to parts of the delving.
It can hurt as we come face to face with ourselves.
Recalling those awful dyad and encounter groups in college psych classes, I am always leery. Unchecked without a proper frame and lens it can really mess a person up. My former boyfriend who was leaving me at the time was in some of those classes that caused me a lot of confusion. Because he was in deep pain and despair, he was affected with not only confusion but hurt and pain. Little did I know then when he threatened suicide while one of his close friends was visiting that several years later he actually would follow through on that desperate thought. I did not understand how lost he was. I only knew I could not help or change him.
I have learned to slowly after decades to trust Him who made me and knows my soul so well. Who wants me whole, in and through Him.
It is going to be a good week.